Quitting-Not Something I'm Use To

So...I quit my job. This week I'll finish up my last campaign and be done. I was ready, but when I went in and talked to my boss, I got a bit emotional. I know that I've reached my max and simply cannot do everything, but that's not me, that's not what Julie has been like her whole life. Casey and I prepared for me to not work, but my circumstances just seemed too perfect. After all, I worked from home. I had to try. Well, when I became a stressed out, crying all the time, overwhelmed freak, I realized I had to drop something for my health and the well-being of my family. I look forward to this new chapter and I am excited for a few "domestic" things:

It has literally been driving me crazy that since we've had Shelby I don't have time to cook. This means we eat a lot of fast food, which means I still have baby-weight to lose. I'm excited to make our meals again and have the time to plan out a healthy diet. I love to cook, and Shelby loves to watch me cook. Hopefully we can all eat a little better.

I'm sorry, this post may seem a bit cliche, but I am excited to clean my house my way. Let's be honest, I'm a little bit OCD and I like my house a certain way. I don't know if it was my mother or my A-type personality, but a messy environment drives me crazy. Casey has been so wonderful to help out, but I drive him crazy because I follow him around when he cleans and sometimes, I go back a redo it. Gulp. I'm glad cleaning won't be the last thing on the list now.

Let's face it. My scripture study and Temple attendance has been struggling. I'm so excited to study more and teach my daughter the principles of the Gospel. I do believe it is a mother's job to create a home environment where the Spirit can be felt and children can be loved and nurtured. No matter what I weigh or how clean my house is, I will fail if my testimony of the Gospel is not strong.

So while I do worry about this:

I've found there's a lot I can live without if me, Shelby, Casey, and even Eleanor are happy.

Most of all I'm excited for Shelby.

Being her mom has changed me. Everyone is a mom in there own way. I didn't quit because I think mom's shouldn't work. I had to quit because I was not going to be a good mom if I worked. I'm amazed by all mothers. These little ones are full-time, 24/7 jobs. They are wonderful. They are worth it.